Friday August 7, 2009

Today has been a little better for the first time in 2 weeks. Is is okay to feel a little better? Ellie I still miss you every second that you have been gone from me. I try to tell myself that your spirit is still held tight in my laughter and my happiness and that I dont have to constantly be sad to love and miss you. I am not sure why I am happier... maybe its time, or maybe its that my husband is home with me today and I have a break. Perhaps its because I have felt more loved and appreciated the past few days or even that I dont feel as fat today. I am sure the increase in meds hasnt hurt either. Anyway I will take this feeling, even if it only lasts for a few hours or days. Its a nice needed break from my saddness. We have our RE consult on Monday so I am hoping to get some hope back.