And the RE says....

we dont usually see cases like yours. Hmm.. well that feels good to know. Most women with recurrent miscarriages dont have all of them due to different chormosomal issues. We know that our chormosomes are normal it just seems to be something that happens during the early stages of embryo development. My RE was also kind enough to tell me that its the egg's job to properly divide the cells. I already carry enough, now I need to be angry at the eggs who screwed up the math. Basically I was told that I could try until we get it right or try ivf with PGD which is expensive and has its limitations. And to top it off, we dont know that our insurance would even cover ivf in our case since we dont need the ivf to get pregnant but need the ivf to do the PGD. Do I have it in me to do it again? I dont know. I was reading something from where I went to college in which updates what its alumni are doing now. There were other dancers there who were doing amazing things. I suddenly felt like I wasnt good enough or successful enough. I feel like I cant succeed at times or that I want to do something bigger. I dont even know what that is. Perhaps its is just restlessness or that I need some kind of life other than my work or parenting. I feel very restless today and unsure of everything. I feel like I have no control.