Could it be

That this is going to work out this time? I am still around, 13 weeks pregnant as of tomorrow. So far the test results, ie ultrasound and bloodwork has come out NORMAL!! It felt so good to hear that. It literally was one of the best moments of my life. I guess you cant appreciate good news if you havent experienced bad news. I am still afraid... Sometimes I wake up early in the am to lay and bed and let my mind wander. I find myself perseverating on any possible thing that could go wrong. I have strange and scarey dreams that I wake up from thankful it was just a dream. I keep waiting for someone to pull the rug out from under me. I feel like as soon as I give in and believe I will be tricked again somehow. I keep trying to focus on the positive, all the good signs that its going to work out. I guess its normal to be afraid, to be cautious. I want my happy ending so bad. I want to meet and love this little one. Hear that universe?